My Annual Review: 2011
December 31, 2011
It’s the last day of 2011. Can you believe 2012 is here?
I wonder what it’ll be like to look back on 2012 in one year…
At the end of 2010, I looked back at the year by doing the Annual Review found on Chris Guillebleu’s website (here). It gives you a format for getting uber-clear on what did and didn’t work for you, and what direction you want head in in the coming year.
Here’s a recap of some of the things I did in 2011:
I gave up alcohol and caffeine for 10 weeks straight.
I went for various amounts of time without sugar or processed food.
I simplified my life and let go of a lot of physical clutter and my storage space.
I got rid of about 70% of my possessions.
I moved to Argentina.
I got certified as a yoga instructor.
I started writing lyrics.
I completed the 10-day Vipassana silent meditation retreat.
I paid off my $10,000 car loan and two credit cards.
I fulfilled a life-long dream of driving cross-country.
I accomplished my goal of being car-free and living somewhere I can rely on public transportation.
I sang in front of people (one of my biggest fears).
I started learning Spanish again.
I started a company.
I learned more about my fears and blocks.
I started healing my inner child.
I meditated every day and went from 15 minutes per day to about an hour.
I did yoga almost every day.
I started being more honest with authority figures (ie bosses).
I said no more often.
I followed my intuition with incredible results.
I took more emotional risks.
I didn’t have any casual sex.
For the first year since 1999, there wasn’t a single morning that I woke up with holes in my memory from drinking too much the night before.
I went to Winter Music Conference and danced sober.
I practiced the harmonica.
I cried in front of more of my friends.
I asked for help more.
I started sailing again.
I went hiking almost every weekend in LA.
I made and sold a number of jewelry pieces.
I bought myself a Mac and learned how to use it.
I attended the Sages and Scientists Symposium, and got into the $2,000 event for free.
I made a number of new close friends.
I was vegetarian/vegan for stretches of time.
I posted a bunch of blogs on Lunasealife and Amicamore.com.
I learned how to use iMovie and GarageBand.
I went to Canada.
I got a hug from Amma.
I CouchSurfed for the first time.
I learned how to navigate subways and buses alone.
I read a bunch of books (20+).
I started drawing and painting again and have been commissioned to illustrate a children’s book.
I met a spiritual teacher.
I had a bunch of powerful realization/aha moments.
I did some of the most challenging personal work of my life.
The crazy thing is, even looking at this list, I don’t feel like I “accomplished” all that much this year. It’s an endless mindf#$%, isn’t it?? No matter how much you do – er, how much *I* do – I still haven’t gotten to that place where I completely feel proud of myself, like I’m doing my best. I understand that I made progress in 2011, but I suppose there’s always farther to go, more expansion, higher heights to reach, a truer you to live as. In 2012 I’d like to continue with all the good stuff I’ve been doing and to step it up even more. I’d like to cut out a few more things that I know for a fact don’t contribute to my living as my best self, things like sugar, alcohol, procrastination and wasting time online.
That being said, I obviously still need to work on self love and acceptance, and making a practice of appreciating all the stuff I HAVE done.
Expression and Authenticity were my focuses for 2011. Self Love, Acceptance and Consistency will be my focuses for 2012. More consistency, more clarity, more focus!
I’ve been reading a lot of Carlos Castaneda quotes these past few days; I’ll leave you with a bunch of relevant ones. Here’s to following a path with heart in 2012 and creating another amazing year!
When a man embarks on the paths of knowledge, he becomes aware, in a gradual manner, that ordinary life has been forever left behind; that knowledge is indeed a frightening affair; that the means of the ordinary world are no longer a buffer for him; and that he must adopt a new way of life if he is going to survive. The first thing he ought to do, at that point, is to want to become a warrior. The frightening nature of knowledge leaves one no alternative but to become a warrior.
We choose only once. We choose either to be warriors or to be ordinary men. A second choice does not exist. Not on this earth.
In his day-to-day life a warrior chooses to follow the path with heart. It is the consistent choice of the path with heart which makes a warrior different from the average man. He knows that a path has heart when he is one with it, when he experiences a great peace and pleasure traversing its length. The things a warrior selects to make his shields are the items of a path with heart. You must surround yourself with the items of a path with heart and you must refuse the rest.
Only as a warrior can one survive the path of knowledge, because the art of a warrior is to balance the terror of being a man with the wonder of being a man.
Everybody has enough personal power for something. The trick for the warrior is to pull his personal power away from his weaknesses to his warrior’s purpose.
Impeccability is nothing else but the proper use of energy.
Impeccability begins with a single act that has to be deliberate, precise and sustained. If that act is repeated long enough, one acquires a sense of unbending intent, which can be applied to anything else. If that is accomplished the road is clear. One thing will lead to another until the warrior realizes his full potential.
A warrior seeks to act rather than talk. A warrior lives by acting, not by thinking about acting, nor by thinking about what he will think when he has finished acting.
Think of your death now. It is at arm’s length. It may tap you any moment, so really you have no time for crappy thoughts and moods. None of us have time for that. The only thing that counts is action, acting instead of talking.
People hardly ever realize that we can cut anything from our lives, any time, just like that. For example, smoking and drinking are nothing. Nothing at all if we want to drop them. Only one thing is indispensable for anything we do; the spirit. One can’t do without the spirit.
What makes us unhappy is to want. Yet if we would learn to cut our wants to nothing, the smallest thing we’d get would be a true gift.
A warrior must cultivate the feeling that he has everything needed for the extravagant journey that is his life. What counts for a warrior is being alive. Life in itself is sufficient, self-explanatory and complete. Therefore, one may say without being presumptuous that the experience of experiences is being alive.A warrior’s love is the world. He embraces this enormous earth. The earth knows that he loves it and it bestows on him its care. That’s why his life is filled to the brim and his state, wherever he’ll be, will be plentiful. He roams on the paths of his love and, wherever he is, he is complete.If we don’t learn how to travel along the avenues of awareness, we will come to such a state of frustration and despair that humanity will end up destroying itself. Our options are the way of the warrior, or extinction.-Carlos Casteneda/Don Juan