February 9, 2011
Sometimes I get frustrated with myself. I get frustrated at the limits I still impose on myself.
I have so many unfinished blog drafts, and things I want to write. About Vibrams and ChiRunning. About education. About our society. About the Lunar New Year. About all the shifts that have occurred in my life so far in 2011. About all the realizations I’ve had. About the amazing veggie meals I’ve been cooking. About what I’ve been learning from my friendships. About my path towards minimalism. About my progress towards financial freedom.
I feel like I never do enough.
That feeling has been with me my entire life. Never enough, never enough. I’m not going to point fingers but I know that ancestral beliefs, ways of thinking and limitations run deep. I’m working hard to shatter all those, and live an authentic life in which I express my soul. I want emotional and intellectual freedom. I want freedom from limited thinking, from fear, from destructive beliefs. I want economic freedom, artistic freedom, physical freedom.
The funny thing is that the only things that keep me from freedom are in my head.
So, I’m working with what’s in my head. I’m sorting through all the crap in there, looking at it, sitting with it, then consciously deciding what stays, and what needs to go. In the new head space I’m creating, I’m adding new things – not things that have been imposed on me by society or parents or teachers or peers or media, but things of my own conscious choosing.
One of the things I’m choosing – to accept myself fully, exactly as I am right now. And to be kinder to myself. I’m practicing loving me.
I hope you are too.
*Consciousness is Contagious*
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