March 11, 2012
I know I’ve done a horrible job at sharing Argentina with you via this blog. Not to mention my road trip across the US last summer. I was reviewing some photos and video last night, and there are some beautiful ones. Perhaps someday when I’m bored and have absolutely nothing to do, I will finally disinter those photos and videos for you. But considering the infinitude of interestingness on the interwebs, and immediate access to practically every book known to man on my Kindle, I’m not sure if that’s realistic.
Anyways, as far as Argentina goes at least, I’d like to make it up to you by directing you to my friend’s blog, Go!Dream!Live! No wait, it’s Dream!Go!Live! Which, when delivered to my inbox, I always read as “dreamg olive”. She does what I aspire to do – consistently shares her experience and photos of life in Buenos Aires.
It’s not that I haven’t been writing. I have been writing, lots, every day. I just haven’t been converting any of that into bloggage. I think I just need to get back into the habit of posting, and the only way I’ve successfully made habits for myself is by doing Challenges. But I’ve been focusing on the No Sugar Challenge. One at a time.
So! The No Sugar Challenge!!! On March 13th, in two days, I will have officially and successfully completed 30 days of No Sugar. This is, by a long shot, the longest I have ever gone without eating refined sugar.
What did this lack of sugar do? (And coffee – I didn’t really drink coffee at this time either, as they pretty much go together for me – I can drink coffee black, but here in Buenos Aires coffee means medialunas or cookies, and those were definitely out).
-Skin: My skin cleared up. The acne and little bumps I get, especially on my forehead, have pretty much gone away, and my psoriasis is less red. However, I did up my dairy intake exponentially while not eating sugar, so I continue to have a few pimples around my jawline and my psoriasis didn’t fully clear.
-Energy: I started waking up earlier. 5:30am most days. I love getting up early, and I love not feeling groggy. That could be as much from stopping coffee as from stopping sugar. This past week I’ve been feeling exceptionally exhausted, but I think that’s mostly due to the intensity of the Vipassana course I did last week, and a lot of emotional processing I’ve been doing. And, probably, my body trying to digest all the cheese.
-Weight: I lost a little weight, but not much, due to the large quantities of cheese and organic yogurt (sugar-free) that I’ve been eating. And steak, and pizza… I met a wonderful Dutch girl at Vipassana and during her four days in Buenos Aires I HAD to take her to all the best food spots. Of course. And, um, I bought a beautiful book called Pizzerias de Buenos Aires…
Oh and near the end of the month I also found that amazing raw sugar-free chocolate at Buenos Aires Verde, and a few days ago discovered sugar-free helado at Juaja, my favorite of which is the lemon ginger. YUM!
-Clarity/Mood: I have a lot more clarity when I’m not eating sugar – clarity as to what I want in life, what really makes me happy, insights into myself and others. Last time I gave up alcohol/sugar for a few weeks, a series of events occurred that led to me leaving Los Angeles and moving to Argentina. And this time, a series of events occurred that led to me making plans to move to Patagonia. Anyways there’s increasing research about the drug-like negative effects of sugar on your mood and body, and things react differently with different people. I definitely have a negative reaction to sugar. I’m aware of this. It doesn’t mean I won’t be eating sugar on March 13th – I will! – but I hope that sugar (like alcohol) will become an increasingly rare addition to my diet.
I love not eating sugar. I also love eating sugar. So, that’s that.
And aside from the dairy and sugar-free treats, 70% of my diet this month has been fruits and veggies, so that’s awesome. I’m quite proud that I went a whole month without caving to medialunas or the apple crumble and dulce de leche they had the last day of Vipassana, or the other things that tempted me every day of the last month.
As I was saying at the beginning, my apologies for not having shared more of my journey with you up to this point. I’ll be posting some photos and maybe a video tour of my current home here in BA, and hopefully filling you in on some of the best eateries and cafes (like the very photogenic Bardepan). My 33rd birthday is next week and a friend is flying down from San Francisco; we’ll be revisiting all of my favorite things about BA before heading down to Patagonia.
Love and light and cheese!
May 6, 2010
I’m feeling quite clear today. And at the same time, tired. I feel like I got enough sleep last night…is it the withdrawal from caffeine and sugar?? I was THIS CLOSE to putting some refined sugar in my mouth today – we were leaving an amazing sushi place in Culver City (K-Zo, beautiful presentation and tasty nom noms) and I saw that they had a silver bowl of those little melt-in-your-mouth pillow mints. My favorite type of free restaurant candy. My hand reached out for the silver spoon and as I was about to grasp the tiny handle, I remembered… NO!!! No sugar. Day Four. I laughed at myself.
But back to the clarity – my mind’s been a bit of a mess lately. Mildly obsessing over stupid things that don’t matter. Meditation helps, writing helps, good friends help, my therapist helps. Though it always comes down to the same thing – I already know the answer. I know the answer before I ask the question. I know the answer before I talk to my friends about it. I know the answer before I bring it up to my therapist. But still, I pretend. I pretend like I have options; I pretend like there’s a choice to be made, and that I can’t decide. Of course, there IS a choice. But I already know that my pondering of all these choices and options is just a distraction – the mental version of alcohol, TV, sex, drugs, facebook, buying shit I don’t need, eating food that brings me a few minutes of pleasure – all a distraction. All an avoidance of the simplicity of it all. I already know. I know what I need, and what’s good for me. But instead of recognizing that and accepting it and letting the rest fall away, I play the game of our world. The bullshit game. We waste so much time bullshitting. I waste so much time bullshitting. Because I’m afraid of making the choice. If I make the choices I know are right, life gets simpler. All that energy that I waste on the distractions – what if I started channeling that into my dreams? Into creating my best life? I might start making progress. And then… I might fail. So I keep on pretending. For now.